Faith starts with you......

Ok so after i put up the last post, i sat and prayed about it. I prayed that by sharing the way i felt would help ease the pain and feelings inside.......not but about a hour or two later there was a knock at the door, and The Lord had answered my prayers, there was the mother of the baby, she had come by to thank us for everything we had done which i wish we could have done more or made the outcome a happier one. I was actually in the shower when she came, as i got out josh came to tell me that she had come, i got dressed and looked out the door and saw her still outside i felt God inside me saying go Tori talk to her....so i got my shoes and i walked down to the family.....after talking to her a while i realized that this is exactly what i needed, after the first time seeing her in a state of panic i was left with a broken heart and fear in my thoughts, but after we talked it eased my fear, and slowly began to un do the knot in my stomach. I told her how very sorry i was for what had happened and that if they needed anything she knew where i lived or even if she just needed to talk, she was very sweet, and loved her baby so much i could see the love in her eyes, i also met her dad and sister they were also very nice. I believe that the Lord sent her back to help my fear from that night ease off. By ending on such a horrifying note it's like a movie that just ends and your waiting for the sequel....except there was no sequel, and it was not a happy ending, but i pray for the family and i prayed for her and i hope and pray that her faith in the Lord will grow from this and that mine will as well, he is so mighty and so powerful that no matter how small of a fear you have he can hear all, and he will fix all.....my love for God has grown even more, that i thought i couldn't love him more until now, i know God has a plan for everyone and i am beginning to see what he has for me, it will still take a while before i can fully understand what he wants me to do, but he is showing me bits and pieces everyday! So tonight as you read this take a moment to close your eyes.....breathe a deep breath and say
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("Lord i thank you for each moment you give me each day, i thank you for the little things that go unnoticed, i thank you for those feelings i get when you are speaking to me, by sending a chill through my body, Lord i love to hear songs about your praise and stories from people who have experienced your power, Lord continue to bless me, my family and my love for you Lord because you are the one and only true way, each day you pull me closer to you and each day i might resist but help me Lord to let go and let God, help me to not feel ashamed to speak your name in public help me to not worry about offending someone who doesn't know you Lord help me to want them to know you, and most of all Help me to forgive as you forgive me, thank you so much oh gracious father, in Jesus name and our best friend forever i pray AMEN")
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